Forever 20

She must has tells something wrong about me to her mother.

Sydney, by appearance, so modern, noble, but when i travel street by street to looking for possible part time job, I find Sydney a second Johor. So mess, dim and dirty. I refuse to find any better thing to compared it with my home country. I learning Australia by making friend first. They can easily start any type of conversation with stranger, without shy or fear, unlike us, because we had always been taught and reminded by school teachers and family that we have to avoid to talk to stranger. "Don't tell them where you live," "don't tell them anything regarding your family," "don't tell them how much money is in your wallet." For sure i will not tell it to anyone if they never ask, or even they asked, I might not telling the true because no point for letting others knowing it. I'm just an ordinary guy from poor family.

Australia, It was the place I going to stay for several year and make better life through Western education. When Amanda remind her eldest sister that she has a fully developed mind, I feel empty in my brain. I have to be re-educate. I feeling useless in this country. I feeling I can die for any kind of situation. No safety in this country, men easily get drunk in the pub!! Not by reading the news of a young international student couples been murdered at waterloo, Sydney" at the first night I in Australia. I think the unsafe feeling come from I knowing nothing from this country. I seen beggars anyway in this country. They sit randomly on the street and play lovely music with their old and lousy instrument, and people don't call them beggars but street performers.

Sorry for my English. I don't write good grammar as it wasn't my mother tongue. There is a funny conversation between an Australian and me, she said she feels proud as an Australian because their government provide unemployment allowance for resident whom refuse to get a job. I don't find any good reason of the benefit, as It's making their resident become lazy and depended to their government. In my home country, our government never provides unemployment benefit, but they did offer us cheap petrol that making our life easier.

Are you sure that our country doesn't provide any unemployment allowance? No, we did provide it, but not much.