UPDATE 27/09/09

I love you. I want to have a family with you. I want to have a baby with you but not children. I will send our children away as soon as his/her grow their intelligent. Babe is cute but children are just disasters. I can afford marriage anytime because my family said no problem they can sponsor my marriage. It's part of my family tradition. But my pride just don't allow this to be happen to me, because it makes me feel useless for rely upon my family. Sorry i knew I'm selfish for not taking the advantage offer. Sorry for to have you wait for me so long. I'm so emotional these days. I emotionally want to cry, but physically don't want to cry. It's just complicated.